The dragon was fought silently
In a journal every so quietly
When no one was there to lend a hand
I kept fighting and pushing for dry land
In the ocean of blackness and tears
I thought I would sink and disappear
To the rescue came a simple pen
And paper pages to write therein.  

The dragon lies defeated
The ocean, a few rain drops
The pages of a journal completed
I now can share my thoughts.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Sting, Try & Obey

The sting of relationship past knocks at my heart
Reminding me there once was a spark
The pictures show smiles and loving eyes
Behind the flash was dark nights and despise
A cute couple is what they said
The pictures and memories are now dead
The sting of relationship past knocks at my heart
Reminding me there once was a loving heart

I found an engagement picture and a wedding picture at the salon.  We looked so in love and happy.  The sting is referring to the good times.  It stings because you can remember how happy you were, but how sad it was too. 
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Try, I beg of you!
Anything, something new
Make an effort to improve
What I feel from you is removed
Slowly sinking in the sand
All I need to live is your hand
Try,  I beg of you!

I'm wanting him to try and save the marriage too.  I couldn't do it alone.  I was sinking in the sand and soon I would be gone;  Buried by the weight of the relationship.  It was so hard to carry alone and I needed him to help share the burden.  Give me his hand and take responsibility for his share.  
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Commandments I must obey
For that is the only way
Fold my hands in prayer
Bow my head, for He is there
My heart is filled and answers are told
As I read the words of old
Feeling the spirit burn within
The door is open. God enters in

Reminding myself that following God's plan is the only way to true happiness.  Also, He is always there and waiting for us to call on Him.