Vortex, I'm here, Spun, I didn't know

Oh No! It's coming

Trying to escape

It moves in closer,

Sucking me into it's space

Thrown around like a rag doll

It's trying to shred me, I want to bawl

I'm stronger than this, My house stands tall

Built upon a rock, I will not fall

Words hit me like raining rocks

Confusion swirls me in a cloud of dust

Emotions spinning wanting me to erupt

Running my mouth trying to reason

It's like telling winter it's no longer a season

The way out is to succumb

Give into the vortex until it's done

The dust settles as the vortex escapes

Leaving me to assess what it tried to erase

It can't erase what it's taken before

Pain and sorrow I try to ignore

The sucking vortex will eat up your heart

Then move on when the lights go dark

My house was destroyed before

Sucked up and spit on the floor

I can't click my heals to take me away from this place

I have to rebuild in this new space

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I'm here, I'm here, I'm here,

Where am I?

This place isn't mine

This life isn't mine

My aching heart tells me it is

Something familiar to see, to touch

All I have is Gods hands

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Self Esteem you are so low

Because the one you loved told you so

Told you things to hurt your soul

Spun me around till I didn't know me anymore

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I didn't know I was kissing fire

I thought it was desire

I didn't know I was playing in the bull's pen

I thought it was a meadow

I didn't know I was holding hands with a serpent

I thought you were a man

I didn't know I was marring a wolf

I thought you were a lamb

I didn't know when you told me you loved me it was a lie

I thought it was the truth

I didn't know it would end up like this

I thought it would be marital bliss