Child, Statue, Questions, Work, & Growing

Sweet child of mine, do you know you're divine?

This hurt you feel will be so small,

I'm ready to give you all.

Child, close your eyes and dream

I'm beside you and on your team

I know your hearts desires and the people you'll inspire

Oh, sweet child of mine, remember you're divine. 

It was raining the night I wrote this.  The rain sounded so peaceful and felt so cleansing.   Although the rain was coming down hard, I heard a soft voice speaking to me.  And this poem is what I heard.

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I stand in one place and watch the world spin

Every one's so busy they can't see the pain I'm in

Are they in pain too?

Maybe we are all like a statue?

I had to tell all my clients about the divorce and I was so sick of talking about it every hour.  This poem is stating that once it's told they go on with their lives and forget about it.  While I have to keep talking about it and feeling the pain from it.  Then I realized that we are all going through stuff and I'm not the only one in pain.  When I say like a statue, it's symbolizing our own hurt and the solidity of it; and no one else can know it.

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All the pieces of my life are at my feet

The only questions I have 

What do I leave?  What do I keep?

When the walls of life come crumbling down and you pull yourself from the rubble, there are a lot of things you don't want to bring into your new life;  A lot of things you do.   I think it's a learning curve, and in life you are constantly renewing good values, Testimony, friendships, relationships, goals, motivation, own thoughts and etc.  Through this process we learn, grow, become stronger and humble.

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I can feel the work of God in my heart

Lifting and carrying away all the bad parts

Whispering ever so small

I'm listening to Him call

I've never felt anything like this before.  I really could feel the work of God in my heart.  The Atonement in action.  It was truly amazing, precious, and sacred.

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So much love in my heart

I feel it growing, it wants to start

Giving, caring, and smiles to share

Oh, I dream of someone to care

Kids to tuck in bed at night

Kisses on cheeks such a delight

Giggles coming from the other room

Building forts out of sheets and making lunch at noon

Watching a family grown

Is something I hope to know 

I never realized how not loving someone or having a person not accept love could change you.  It made me feel empty.  Completely unfulfilled.   As a woman, I feel it's my role to nurture, care, love, be gentle, kiss away sadness, cheer up a room, run an organized home, and have fulfillment in being a wife and mother.  When I was in my marriage, he didn't want kids, he didn't want me to nurture, care, love, and etc.   He was happy with us living separate lives.  I knew I wasn't living up to my full potential as a woman.