Stop, Stranger, & Stupid Boy

Stop the insanity

Lets make peace

Stop blaming

Lets understand

Stop building walls

Lets make a home

I was at a point where I was done fighting.  I didn't want to be angry anymore.  I wanted to find a resolution.  The only problem with that was, he didn't. 

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I want him to say I'm pretty 

Not a stranger

I want him to stare at me with love in his eyes

Not a stranger

I want him to want me

Not a stranger

A stranger I have

 To make it simple, he didn't look at me with love in his eyes.  He didn't tell me I was pretty.  He didn't want me.  I had other people (strangers) telling me I was pretty or guys staring at me when I waked by.  When I say 'A Stranger I have', it means two things: 1. He was not in love with me anymore, so he became a stranger.  2. The people who did tell me theses things were strangers. 

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The harder I try, the more helpless he thinks I am

Stupid boy

The bigger the smile I fake, the more he thinks he's fooled me

Stupid boy

The more I listen to his feelings, the better he feels

Stupid boy

The more I suppress my feelings, the better it is for him

Stupid girl

I was starting to realize the verbal abuse cycle he was spinning.  When I say stupid girl at the end, it relates to the whole poem. If you look back at the poem you'll see the girl is the only one doing anything  and making an effort.  While the boy sits back and enjoys it.   But the girl wasn't stupid like the boy thought.  I had figured it out.  He didn't have control like he thought.  Which is why I say, stupid boy.